Monday, April 30, 2007
wondering...
issit important to be the 1st priority ALL the time?i guess yes when it's like war or sth n then i should be saved from the crumbling building tt threatens to crash down over my head... but wad abt more everyday things like being the 1st to get the best things... or being helped when i need it?
isn't it natural for ur 1st reaction at MY successes to be happiness instead of feelings of inadequacy abt urself?
becuz i would never do tt to u. and u know it.
mmm. mystery.
it's so hard to decide wad i should accept as natural and typical and then try to adapt to it, n when my unhappiness (slight, but ya =) ) is a sign of sth a bit wrong somewhere...
or mebbe it's juz the stress of exams or too much spring sunlight for the vampire to bear or sth.
i need a guru. hehe.
i summon my sisters. hehe.
cyn at 10:00 AM
