Saturday, December 09, 2006
goodbye to u. u. u. u. u. & u.
cyn at 9:51 PM
sometimes i know wad im doing is wrong but i cant decide, i cant decide
cyn at 9:38 PM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
hear.listen.
i suddenly came to the conclusionthat not many pple know how to listen
talk, there are SO many. here, there, everywhere.
but the ability to juz shut up a moment n listen to wad others hafta say, seems to be one of those rare dying traits.
sometimes i wonder why i like to bottle up my feelings or lyk truncate them to make better stories.
duh... if there's not one to listen to how i feel, then who to tell but myself rite!
ok but all is not lost.
i DO know a few. lyk, juz right can count on one hand. but enough. =)
n im grateful to be thus loved by u. yay =)
tho next time can always send to frank n lyk, let my secrets gain international reognition. o how random.
cyn at 12:42 AM
Friday, December 01, 2006
speech to make if i win miss london
sometimes i get so caught up in negativity i forget to stop n see the all the beauty in my life!!!sometimes things happen n i get realleh affected at tt moment but i forget it super fast afterwards (which is a good application of a bad memory =S)
OR i dun feel it at the moment then i go home n evaluate it over n over in my mind n feel suckkYYY (which is a waste of brain power n mebbe tt's the thing frying my brain)
but
but
but
there is so much to give thanks for!
lyk
how beautiful it looks now, as we are in transition to winter! esp. the leaves n all the yellows n reds n browns n regent's park is SUCH a sight n all the squirrels are hiding acorns (hehe puddle... HERE TOO THEY ARE!) n carrying pawfuls of dried leaves lyk they're duvets!
juz BEING in london where dreams can realleh come true n tons of pple wanna come n cant but im realleh HERE! n it's SUCH A WASTE to spend time here feeling sad n sorry for myself... WHICH I WUN ANYMORE duhh! :):)
n i keep complaining abt sch but heyy it's lyk such a good education (even if i dun understand... FOR NOW) n i haf frenz ( the warm, cuddly, talk abt feelings sort n the sort i juz wanna slap everyday... or poke their abs or sth ;) ) n we haf fun n there're so many places to go n things to see! it's juz plainly impossible to be bored laa!
OH n lyk, even if i dun understand my lessons there's always pple who are fighting wif me for the position of person-who-least-understands. or pple who say, ohh juz do it the s'porean way yanneng... dun deny ur roots! do 100 qns n it's ok if u dun understand, juz puke it all out n u can still get 1st class. :):)
n i haf nice hot soup in my room. n i haf pipagao.
there is so much more n im truly overwhelmed!!!
but the bestest thing of all is
i know tt back home there'll always be pple there, loving me as much as i love them, or more. n they'll scold me but forgive me anw even tho i send their bday cards late. ALL 3 of their bday cards. =S n there are pple waiting to SING WIF ME n SHOP WIF ME n EAT THE THINGS I BRING BACK orrrr! juz be wif me. =) n i will haf the happiest xmas ever.
cyn at 8:31 PM
