Tuesday, October 31, 2006
sending out smiles to chell
u din get my flowers
so here they are again =)
cyn at 2:12 AM
ice.cream.
ok it's 2am n i wanted to sleep early today but i can't resist this!to all pple i know who may fall into this category (well, juz 1, realleh, but yeah):
DUN BE FAKE!!! i've tried tt n it juz makes u miserable n u'll nv be tt person u wanna be anw! so, be happy =)=)
i dun mind unhappening pple but dun try to make urself so happening until arh, u juz become plain MEAN.
haha!
i'm strangely high tonite
i think zhixian's pineapple rice is drugged :):)
happiness. i lyk moodswing days which end in highs.
cyn at 2:01 AM
Sunday, October 29, 2006
im a kind girl. =)
happy mugging day today. i could do wif a backrub. daylight savings begin tmrw and since im of simple brain i dun quite know the implications, but i think it's supposed to be good. =)yesterday mervyn n i got a SO yummy jap food treat from david's dad. thankew david's dad! it was a super posh place in green park... the waitresses wear kimonos! wowowowow. haha! n they do table settings and all... u can see the woman's hand trembling as she tries to set the soup pot at THAT EXACT ANGLE. haha. i wish i'd said 'boo!' then she'd spill it n hafta give us an extra bowl or sth. anw, the 2 guys ordered lyk 5 course meals n i had to clean up the scraps! -_- the funny thing is, david's dad was egging me on. haha. that's SO weird! hahahha :) (ok to me...)
i've had so much fruits today! buying 2 boxes for 1 pound strawberries is not realleh worth it i think... cuz it means u gotta consume 2 boxes in less than 2 days. they rot BY THE HOUR. hahaha!
cyn at 1:33 AM
Friday, October 27, 2006
smart choice.
been feeling very lethargic these days... wandering around, rather zombified. heart is aching, think i miss familiarity.n lilian koh! i realleh miss talking to u gurl!!! only awhile tt day... not enuf to fa xie... i'm gonna lose the ability to talk realleh realleh fast about every every thing!
anw, TGIF la! juz bought strawberries... a bit distorted, lyk GM foods. but nvm still can eat. haha!
this sun is fright night, can't wait to get VIOLENT! hcanoe gurls, rmb halloween in j1?!?!?! hahaha! how could we ever forget! ...i think the councillors still hate us. heehee! din bring my witch's hat over... :(
n there's a student union demonstration too! on rising sch fees... i guess i sorta lyk dun realleh care abt the cause (i mean, these thingys realleh work meh?!?!) but haha how often do u get to join in protests rite! havent yelled in damn long. haha. n free breakfast. :)
OR i could go for canoepolo on sun. chell i dun realleh like it leh. i love the paddling but rather crap at the game. n i havent learnt to roll! :( i still think i like more endurance stuffs. u think?
ok im feeling a bit boring. gg for a run whee. regent's park is pretty near, n nice, too! take care everyone!
cyn at 3:23 PM
Monday, October 23, 2006
nostalgic day!
this is from 'before sunrise'. i watched the rented DVD, looked for the sweet parts n paused n unpaused juz to get these!the nicest coolest truest parts of the long long conversation! how could any1 not lyk the show?!!?! *thunder*
i cant rmb the characters' names so G is gurl n B is boy :)
G: Why is it u become obsessed wif pple u dun realleh lyk tt much?
B: U know wad's the worst thing abt somebody breaking up wif u? It's when u rmb how little u thot abt the pple U broke up wif...and u realise that that is how little they're thinking abt u. U'd lyk to think u're both in all this pain but realleh, they're juz, "hey, im glad u're gone."
G: I always feel this pressure of being a strong and independent icon of womanhood and not making it look lyk my whole life is revolving ard some guy. but loving some1 and being loved means so much to me. i always make fun of it and stuff but isn't everything we do in life a way to be loved a little more?
B: I don't know. sometimes i dream abt being a good father and a good husband. and sometimes it feels realleh close. but then other times it seems silly lyk it would ruin my whole life. and it's not juz a fear of committment or that im incapable of caring or loving becuz i can, it's juz that, if i'm totally honest wif myself, i think i'd rather die knowing i was realleh good at sth. That i had excelled in some way than that i had juz been in a nice, caring relationship.
G: Yeah. but...i had worked for this older man, and once he told me that he had spent all of his life thinking abt his career and his work. he was 52 and it suddenly struck him that he had never realleh given anything of himself. his life was for no one and nothing. he was almost crying saying that. u know, i believe if there's any kind of God, it wouldn't be in any of us, not u or me...but juz this little space in betw. if there's any kind of magic in this world...it must be in the attempt of understanding some1, sharing sth. i know it's almost impossible to succeed btu who cares, realleh? the answer muz be in the attempt.
ain't this cool! sigh. love this movie.
spent abt 2 hrs juz sitting in bed reading... old diary, n my brighton book. n listening to rouma cheesy songs lyk "i love u came too late" n "dreamlover" n "fire" haha!
i am too extreme. one day mug all day, the next day slack all day! i haf a lousy timetable... hiong at the beginning n end of week n slack in the centre. tt means no life during weekends la. haha.
8 degrees tmrw! DIE.
cyn at 8:43 PM
Saturday, October 21, 2006
float like a butterfly sting like a bee! irrelevant title but just ignore me
hello! hey pple who read my blog pls tag k? i will feel less lonely, more loved :)
pictures from my sister's wedding! i've got mostly informal shots la n Bad Behaviour Caught on Tape!
haha. tho of cuz those i post will be censored version. :) there aren't any shots of anything else besides the wedding becuz had no time to do anything else!
so! no shopping hardly any exploring n no swimming in the cool pool where everyone else took a dip! (wanted to skinnydip at 3am wif my other sis but her phone ran out of batt so we din haf an alarm to wake up. ok crap. wadeva. haha!)
but the villa we stayed was sooo lovely! it's a compound of 5 glasshouses n my sis n i got the biggest, most central room! ...which also meant we had to remain glam even when pottering around in the room. n the toilet is outdoors n i saw spiders dancing between the soaps twice... aiyoo :S
the chapel is far far away from where we stayed, up a long dirt road to the mountains n it's on a cliff n waah everything is juz lyk fairytale man...! though i could feel my face melting n my feet blistering. who cares la, still beautiful (the scenery, n me):D
and in the process i fell in love wif my little niece. she's got so much attitude man! when u pet her on the head (which i only made the mistake of doing once :p) she gives a scowl. which is so... !!! atypical! i lyk! can't stand those saccharine marshmallows... n we had cool conversations. did u know spiderman's suit is an alien? :D
(Sans: hehe i resisted the strong temptation to put ur toot bee soap pic :D thank me)
cyn at 10:57 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
back
back in london, after a short but satisfying break!a few observations:
i cry too much. haha. happiness, sadness, touched-ness! i guess it reminds me tt i'm very much alive... but it's pretty annoying when u're the bridesmaid worrying abt black tears, or u cry until u can't eat! haiyo! haha.
despite 2 yrs of enduring blisters, i still haven't grown thick enough foot-skin. it is annoying.
i love my family a lot. :)
it's good to be back and talk at the rate of 20 words/sec again, poke fun at tan n hear shimmie shout, "NEINNNG!" again. n some like winston n steph are very kind to help me get my work on track. but some are disgustingly selfish. hello all our notes are THE SAME... n im not gonna ascend to ur level of divine intelligence even if i copy urs.
hehe.
grumbling again i am, shows that i'll be alright. :)
cyn at 2:47 AM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
to a special brown gurl...
dying of sleepiness but i gotta send out this tribute!!!to my dear laogong BOONSHAN who turned 19 on sunday!!! happy bday! whee!!! :) sorry gurl! i wanted to msg u but after i typed it i realised i din haf ur US no.! lyk, wth u din give me u meanie!!! :D
anw! ehh i really dunno how i would've survived jc2 w/o u 3, esp. u, ever my pillar of support! u ah! always cannot really understand how i feel =), complaining my moods lyk rollercoaster, but always there to support me anw! n listen to my ramblings... n soo patient to explain things to me, take notes for me when i pon lect n write "yanni :(" on my maths notes!
n haha how could i ever forget the pullups we trained so hard every breaktime! ...the torture cannot compare to waiting for u to finish eating la! :) n waiting for u to get jokes, after which u'll usually give up n say, "aiya wad-ever!" hahaha!
buggy, there's a comfort in walking around n talking calmly to u, tt i can't really find in many pple... u dun go ultra-hyper n destructive :) but it's lovely juz having some1 there to laugh along wif me n tell me nice stories n wah! really help me thru so many things..! n ur shoulder was always ultra-warm n ever-ready, even if i had to share it wif tt woman of urs. :D
happy bday my sweetie!
pls find some1 who'll really take care of u n pls go lyk some hot eligible bachelor! alamak! so old alr still dunno how it feels?!? tsktsk! ashamed of u! haha!
n pls dun get any browner! i will be hellishly jealous! i haf always been. :(
love u babe...!
cyn at 12:00 PM
brighton!
haf been many places in betw (i checked my schedule, i went shopping or doing stuff after sch almost everyday! wah! haha.) but i'll juz focus on the main places... brighton! which is where we singsoc folks went on the 7th, sat. a seaside town, lyk a small london but much less built up, n wif my FAVOURITE tiny little cheap bargain shops! haha! n of cuz i met new pple again n it was realleh a great feeling :Di din buy anything tho. n tt's quite sad. :( n sans i saw the claire's shop there... wif MILLIONS of earrings n pretty stuff! o gosh i realleh love tt shop! but i din buy anything la. ex. :(
on the coach... shimmie decides to accept my valiant shoulder to sleep on... =) this is so artistic la. n i'm so mean. hehe.
some of our brighton clique! haha. i met new gurls! jenn, n sharon. s'poreans who studied all over the place (i mean in other countries...) , n did their As here... so cool rite :) jenn even has a thai driving licence! :D
brighton pier...
haha. there're millions of these on the pier! guess who?! :)
in the arcade. 1 pound per game! but i HAD to try it! war shooting game. n i died 1st. shimmie is good. :( haha.
ian cheng thinks he is v handsome, and decides to leave traces of himself on my camera. ok la, help u out la. any1 wants his no.? juz drop me a note n i'll arrange sth...
the fun dolphin game! ...which winston lost in. but nvm! i loooove the coLOurs!!
shimmie decides to be a purple fish.
haha wad's our fascination wif this! btw u can actually book weddings on the pier! wah! romantic.
we share a sexy fry.
graffiti. :)
fudge shop! gurls, cue the drooling! me n cheng ate some on the counter n the woman came to tell us tt they weren't samples. so we chewed faster n swallowed anw. hehe! so bei bi.
on brighton streets! lovely street market! n limo behind. ok i juz remembered, i DID buy sth, n it's a book :D. 'A General Theory of Love'! woohoo! i'm really getting into this brainy philo stuff :D i think i actually lyk this sort of thing, lyk the biological basis of feelings n behaviour n stuff. wah! i'm such a science geek. :) i guess i juz miss bio... o btw! they sell tiger balm in the aromatherapy shop. hahaha!
last few hours spent on the lovely pebble beaches! juz lay around taking artistic photos... n cheng challenged winston to a race on the beach. :) no one wanted to race me. :(
the emo part :)
u know, i haven't been really happy lyk this, for very long. i've always found it hard to juz be myself and enjoy the things i do. but since coming here... i think i've been a pretty real me... crazy, moody, quiet, crappy all at once. n i lyk the feeling. u dun hafta be wif the coolest or the boldest to be happy (tho they ARE cool n bold! haha!) but no one i hang out wif are fake or dodgy (tho some of u try to molest me on a regular basis u-know-who-u-are!), n it's juz so comfortable! n i'm so glad it's this way. :)
i've actually learnt to rely on my frenz more than ever since coming... lyk in the past when i'm sad i usu dun say anything, juz think abt it till the feeling fades away... but here... every1 extends their help, and i feel support all around me, n whoa it's juz the sweetest feeling.
shimmie jiayun steph ianx2 winston weizhi wesley chihchwen (yunhao) phyllis mervyn n all the lovely new pple i've met!
thanx for all the little kindnesses u've shown me, whether it's staying up to crap wif me on msn, or cooking lovely meals, or sending me home!!! (which shim n cheng n phyllis did today even tho it was 12am and every1 was dying!) thanx for being genuine n trusting me n being NICE :)
emo part over :)
gg home tmrw n i'm pretty exCiTed :D
PS: btw! i haf millions of photos but i only posted some becuz i haf too many! n it's my blog so they're mostly me :D if u all want somemore can ask from me online or sth k? better still leave ur thumbdrive wif me for a few days, i give u all haha.
PPS: i still love s'pore best. n s'pore frenz still rawk. n i love u all. so dun get jealous arh! haha! it's juz tt... i guess here u HAF to depend on frenz. n tt really changes a lot. AIYA. still love u la! dun scold me! haha.
cyn at 11:22 AM
1st party =(
This is kinda sad, but on the 3rd Oct, more than a week after i 1st arrived, i finally went for a party, n i din enjoy it la. :( so sad! haha. anw, it was a UCL singsoc party... a boat party! so wad happens is everyone gets onto this boat and it goes back n forth along the thames for lyk 3-4 hrs n u juz take in the sights... a lot of stuff to see along the river man! it was quite exciting =)N the best part for me was meeting pple! whoa amazing ya! but i did :)
i met tsu-lyn, lyk wth! i mean, wth in a good way, lyk ya she totally disappeared! ...cuz now she's not in LSE anymore la. hehe. N i grew re-accustomed to her weirdness... wad will i do w/o weird pple in my life?! *lightning* haha!
chonglin was there, michelle chan (who vanished) was there too! wow wee!
n there was a lot of standing around making small talk wif strange pple... which i am generally bad at. :( but on retrospect, even tho i was bad at tt =), i actually know them lyk, now! so, wow! perspectives change, opinions change (especially for indecisive me), and i think it wasn't so bad! :)
n i got bought a drink by a guy for the 1st time! ....admittedly it's juz andre my senior whom i think kinda pitied me :( haha! but it was a cool feeling! lyk WHOA hehe :)
anw i learnt the lesson to be less brave next time, and wear more. :) teeth chattering in many photos. so u might see a blur at my mouth or sth.
also, met some guy who found my shoulders nice to fondle. haha! luckily i rmbered to shave them b4 gg.... eh. no la. :)
n i know i'm wearing the same dress as my farewell, but wth. it's wasteful to wash clothes after wearing juz once.
ok pix :)
some peeps from our hall whom we went wif... our 1st ride in a cab! :) i was sitting on the seat for luggage n mervyn was there too next to me but he refused to take pix wif me. :( so bad. haha
joanne wif her 3-pounds-dress-which-looks-from-topshop! n zhian wif the saucer eyes.
trying to look hot wif tsu-lyn. eh. not v successful.
sc gurls reunion, take 3... becuz tsu-lyn lyks to close her eyes, or disappear behind pple or sth.
cute guys n gurls :)
gambling partners... blackjack is skill-intensive n COOL, n we won 2nd prize!!! so, some party poppers tt din pop, fake noses tt look fake, n sth to blow.
cyn at 9:52 AM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
when ur frenz give u the feeling called HOME
after a day of bummin...n abt 10min of cleaning the room... :(
it's off to sleeping at shimmie's! woohoo!
we'll haf intimate relations in our pjs!
i lyk =)
cyn at 7:32 PM
Dedications II
Dear sisters:sorry for the little delay before writing this! as u can tell im blogging lyk mad a few entries a day! :)
yeah. this is no less sincere. =)
Tarts:
hello dear! i hope u're fine! will be seeing u really soon n i wish it was tmrw but ya i guess i gotta wait awhile more. :( pls dun be stressed i hope to see u really happy n radiant for ur big day! n i can still help u out even tho i'm here k? :) it was real nice talking to u b4 i flew over... if u do visit london pls let me sponge on u! i haven't been drinking, can't afford british champagne. :) do take care k!!! n talk to ma, she enjoys ur calls i think even tho they end so abruptly! haha! we had a good laugh over tt. :D love u!
Erts:
hey pie! i miss ur eccentricities la... it was nice having someone a fair bit weirder than me at home :S haha! i saw u around less than i would've liked la... but yeah thanx for the entertainment anw haha! i hope u're still contributing to improving our society... pls take care of urself and ur hubby n humour him la his unfunniness is damn funny. sigh. thanx for all the coats u contributed to my wardrobe k! it's a bit depressing not being able to afford anything here but ur Premium hand-me-downs are really all i need n im glad i brought so many :D ya... pls be happy k? n send me some pix of ur handsome little boys. miss u ya...
Sans:
hey dear :) i guess u'll hafta face my empty bed for a long time to come... but im lonely here w/o a sleeping buddy too! (tho im not advertising for one hehe) i quite regret not having enuf time to 'bond' wif u at nites! n we haven't lianed our shanhuhai for damn long la... haiyo. :) nevertheless, thanx for the company, whether it's in the form of me falling asleep on my bed while waiting for u to finish ur neverending baths! or the phone conversations concurrent wif mine on the next bed! yeah. thanx for shopping wif me for my stuff, n all the bits of advice delivered in sisterly nagging. hehe! pls keep me updated on everything! im still a sucker for gossips. :) n take care...
Bee:
hey baby gurl! sorry to leave juz as we became more affectionate towards each other :) pls eat ur snacks we dabaoed from london (but eat the ikan bilis 1st) n dun run upstairs when it rains or u can't come down again! :( love u dear! 
my farewell steamboat :D next time dun hafta hide ur pimple, i love u, pimple n all (aww!)
cya soon babes...
cyn at 1:00 AM
